Jan 16, 2008

can't we be a bit more French about this?

Now with spell check! Now making sense!
I realize that a part of my brain is dedicated to trying to get me to smoke.

A very clever, relentless part of my brain.

I can't put my finger on that thing that makes me want to smoke. Because an actual trigger can be anything.


I see the words Johnny Rotten = I want to smoke

I see the words financial setback = I want to smoke

I think of a new way to do something (anything) = I want to smoke

I switch on a lamp and the light bulb burns out = I want to smoke

It was a forty year old lamp. A forty year old light bulb. That still worked. Until today.

A forty year old, very possibly German lamp and light bulb (that I've never seen anywhere else ever before).

A very possibly irreplaceable lamp and light bulb.

I think about smoking a lot.

In an aside, I should mention that I have a lamp guy who can sort all of this out for me.

Though, he is such a realist (depressive) that I can already hear the disappointing news (in that voice of his), that:

"there is no way" he can locate such light bulbs, bla, bla (on and on).

This lamp guy tends to err on the side of (reality) practicality.

And he's the only lamp guy in Chicago.

(I'd do anything for a more upbeat lamp guy)


Then there's France.

My mind will tell me - someone in France is smoking right now.

She (this French smoker) says, "..ah life, what are you going to do?", and lights another cigarette with the burning end of her last cigarette.

She is living her life. Her French life.

Can't I live my French life, too?Can't I ?

Can't I ?


  1. Need to remind yourself about why you quit in the first place. There had to be a reason, and a pretty good one. So what was it?

    Is the lightbulb a bayonet style? You may need to press the bulb down and then turn counter clockwise. Make sure you have a cloth or oven mitt on your hand first, just in case. If it is a bayonet style, I can send you a replacement. I don't know why it was called bayonet style, unless the press and turn action is also used to attach a bayonet onto a gun.

  2. Hee heee...standard American light bulbs are called Edison Screws. *Snort*

  3. It's flat (if that makes sense). Maybe 2 inches. And it's as though the whole lamp has to be taken apart to get the bulb out - but, for the life of me, there is no seam or bolt or any way to dissemble the lamp.

    Thanks, I'll look up bayonet bulb and answer back!

  4. I'm going to rest easier at night knowing that you have a "lamp guy".

    Actually, here's a kawinkiedink:

    I'm looking at, right now, a 40 year old lamp of your (our) father's that also happens to be in desperate need of a 'lamp guy". Where in the hell does one find a "lamp guy"?

    I'm gonna go google "lamp guy" now.

  5. ALSO:

    If it's the Tizio lamp you're talking about, it's 35 years old, not 40, and you gotta just pull that sucker straight out.

  6. Smorg - The lamp guy is at
    A Lamp Repair in Avendale (what used to be Fairview). It's not the Tizio. It's one of a pair of lamps that telescope down (very neatly, for no reason) and are from the late fifties.

    Lyvvie - The light bulbs do come out (!) they were held in place magnetically.

    They are probably avialable somewhere on ebay - but are deffinitely no longer manufactured.

    Thanks all.

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